I've been experiencing an internal conflict with myself over the past 2 weeks. It stimulates from my chosen hobby to model. I decided to let go of my desires to model almost a year ago. By a whim of fate, I ended up doing a photoshoot to make flyers to help promote for the Fashion Show I'm participating in at Club 1120, tomorrow night. I originally accepted an offer to be a Ring Girl for an MMA fight because a dear friend's band is performing at the event and I had just separated from my ex, once again. Out of rebellion, I accepted the offer. Which my choice to do so, has brought alot of negative energy into my life. I'm being paid good money for my time and participation but you can't put a price tag on a peace of mind.
This week has been a hectic week for me. I've worked for almost 2 weeks straight. This Sunday will be my first day off. I'm going to thoroughly enjoy it.
I received a newsletter and pamplet from the authors Esther and Jerry Hicks this week. As I was reading the material, I encountered a message I felt I was led to read. I've never received any information from them in the mail before, so it was a nice little surprise. The message has inspired me to pick-up a copy of their latest book "Money, and the Law of Attraction".
I felt compelled to share the message with everyone, becuase this has inspired me to stay on the right path and to continue to make better decisions in my life, so I will reap the benefits of a prosperous and joy-filled life.
"Most people have no idea of the power of their own thoughts. They do not relaize that as they continue to find things to compalin about, they disallow their own physical well-being. Many do not realize that before they were compalining about an aching body or a chronic disease, they were complaining about many other things first. It doesn't matter if the object of your compalint is about someone you are angry with, someone who has betrayed you, behavior in otehrs that you bleieve is wrong, or somehting wrong with your own physical body-complaining is complaining, and it disallows recovery."
"Learn to guide your thoughts in the direction of things that feel good, and discover the ower that only comes from vibrational alignment with the Source." (aka God, or whatever creator you believe in)
YOUR THOUGHTS CREATE YOUR REALITY
My thoughts weren't aligned with the source energy and from my lack of alignment I made a decision to start modeling, again, and it has attracted negative energy and people into my life.
"The Law of Attraction says that which is like unto itself, is drawn."
Which means what you think, at any moment, attracts other thoughts that are like it. That is why when you are thinking about an unpleaseant subject, more unpleasant thoughts regarding the subject arise.As your negative thoughts expand, so do your negative emotions and you begin to attract more of it into your life.
Once you start discussing it with others, it brings a negative thought pattern into their life, as well as brings more negative events into your life. Which is why it's important to be careful who you associate with or consider friends. The more you think about things, the more likely you'll bring that experience into your reality.
Be careful of your thoughts for it creates your future experiences.
I've been doing the best I can to eliminate any and all negative people, or experiences into my life. I made one decision for the wrong reasons and I'm now committed to ful-fill my commitments. It's the right thing to do. But once it's over, I'm done with all of it for good.