During the past few months, I been down at the bottom of my rope, and too weak to climb back up (at the beginning). I started going to church and things were going well for me, but I didn't feel peace inside myself.
I wanted to venture out and have good times with my friends. I started going to dinner everything Thursday night with a group of friends and had some really great times. But still I didn't feel peace inside myself. Things actually grew worse.
I've been in stuck in a state of confusion wondering if this were the right decision or if that were the right decision.
After spending some much needed time at the beach, my soul finally felt a sense of peace. I was overwhelmed with emotions and I even cried to my friend.
The ocean speaks to my soul and it listens. The universal language we all know within us (which mine felt peace) had experienced nothing. NOTHING was exactly what I needed...no worries, no drama, no paranoia, no NOTHING. AHHH! It felt great.
Finally, I let go of wanting to say GOODBYE to someone I've had a rollercoaster relationship with for the past year. I let go of many friends, and they've let go of me.
Any problems that existed before I left, I no longer care about them. They're in the past. I can either dwell on them and allow them to effect my NOW and my Future, or let them go and leave them in the past.
The only direction you can go is forward, you don't have an option. I choose to go forward with a smile. I get to my destination, no matter what I choose, might as well enjoy it.